sunnuntai 23. joulukuuta 2007
perjantai 21. joulukuuta 2007
This is sheer madness to me, I cannot understand this at all and strongly disagree. The man is behind at least tens of thousands deaths and just when all the former Communist countries have been ashamed of this lunatic, some idiotic Finns bring this kind of idea in the public. Why not build a statue to Idi Amin or Saddam Hussein? They are important historical figures too. Have these people really thought this through???
For all of us to remember here´s one example what this "helper of the poor" have said in his letter to Bolsheviks of Penza in 11.8.1918:
The rebellion of kulaks (peasants, landowners) must be destroyed immediately and ruthlessly. The Example must be made. Hang at least 100 kulaks, rich people, bloodsuckers in front of the everybody. Publish their names. Confiscate their belongings and properties and crops. Name hostages, get real tough people...
More can be easily found, this is just one example of his Communism. It is laughable and historically incorrect to say that it was Stalin who was the dictator and Lenin just a minor player in the tragic human experiment called Communism.
Now playing: Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - Loom of the Land
sunnuntai 16. joulukuuta 2007
Our moving is complete too. All the furniture and stuff are now in our Tapiola home. Still in bags and boxes, but all is there. 3rd floor without a lift was a challenge fo us, but we made it, thanks to Kimmo, Maria, Markku, Jaana, Jarkko and Marita. The first night was not a good one (little restless sleep), because the "drive" was still on, my body and mind were still moving.
Next day will include a lot of organising. But there is no hurry in that, our boarding is complete.
Pink Floyd: High hopes
keskiviikko 12. joulukuuta 2007
Monday evening we attended FC Honka Gala Night which was very enjoyable. We got the invitation from the marketing director, who is my friend. Great ending for this season and the anticipation for the next is growing rapidly.
Last two days have been filled with box-carrying, car-driving, steps-climbing and muscle-stretching. It's very rewarding to see how our home slowly changes place. The new home soon has more stuff than our current home. But in our minds the home is still there where our heart still is. And that's the old place. I guess the first night will start to change it.
Tomorrow's a workday but Friday is our official moving day. And Saturday comes the large furniture.
Our lives are in the boxes, I should say as a cliche. But that sounds stupid. Now when sitting alone in the darkness, blogging you with new Nokia weaponry, in our new terrace in the 3rd floor, everything feels like... All right... Watching the pines in calmness... I think I'm actually quite happy.
Depeche Mode: Enjoy the silence
sunnuntai 9. joulukuuta 2007
But we must not ignore lyrics either. In my Finnish blog I used to analyze some songs and what their lyrics represent. Or I just took the words as poems. Maybe my thought were very different from the writer´s viewpoint, but I think I have the right to think like that.
Here comes the first analysis in the Lighthouse. It is about a song called SING FOR ABSOLUTION. It is written by Matthew Bellamy, a genious mind behind the British band called MUSE. This song has a sad melody and feeling overall, and it´s piano parts are something that I call "haunting". That´s my definition of a melody that´s so beautiful that it makes you swallow, almost put tears in your eyes and touches you. These happen not so often to me.
Here´s the lyrics:
Lips are turning blue
A kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
Tiptoe to your room
A starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
And you never knew
Sing for absolution
I will be singing
And falling from your grace
There's nowhere left to hide
In no one to confide
The truth burns deep inside
And will never die
Lips are turning blue
A kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
Sing for absolution
I will be singing
And falling from your grace
And our souls
Won't be exhumed
I think this song is a song about a man who has betrayed his wife and is standing at the bedroom door with these thoughts on his head. Lips are turning blue, because there hasn´t been any connection between them for some time. Still there´s some hope left and man thinks he has killed that hope with his doings. He thinks that he must tell his wife, he cannot hide it anymore. He still loves her, but he knows he had done a terrible thing. He is crying, singing, shouting inside his head for absolution, forgiveness, because the truth burns inside of him and will cease if it remains a secret. But in the end their wrongs remain unrectified, does this means that he has given up all hope of their future?
OR how does this change if Matthew meant that the betrayer is a woman! Really changes the picture in your head, does it?
OR what if the betrayer is sleeping and his/her spouse has found this out and is struggling to get it out of his/her chest? Maybe after this song there´s a big argueing coming up. Maybe these are the final seconds before other one wakes up.
Something serious has happened and will happen after these words.
What do you think?
Here´s the official beautiful video from Youtube. Find the haunting melodies!
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Now playing: Blackmore's Night - Streets of London
perjantai 7. joulukuuta 2007
Just one week left in our old home. Our Niittykumpu place is filled with boxes and we have no desire to clean anything anymore. When our life is in the new home, then it´s time to leave a clean home to the next tenants.
Northern Tapiola, we´re coming...
Now playing: Essexx: Caroline
lauantai 1. joulukuuta 2007
This video is just a music and one picture. And that´s a fan-made-video.
Now playing: R1Live - DAS Darkwave und Gothic Radio. Immer die aktuellsten News aus der schwarzen Szene.
perjantai 30. marraskuuta 2007
Facebook members have forced the social networking site to change the way a controversial ad system worked.
More than 50,000 Facebook users signed a petition calling on the company to alter or abandon its Beacon advertising technology.
When Facebook users shopped online, Beacon told friends and businesses what they looked at or bought.
Many considered the data sharing to be an intrusion that exposed them to more scrutiny than was comfortable.
In response to the demands, Facebook's 55 million members will have more control over whether data about what they do online is used for Beacon.
Before the changes, Beacon was an "opt out" system and many complained that they missed the chance to avoid using it when it was introduced in early November.
Now Beacon will be an "opt in" system that only tracks data if explicit permission is granted to Facebook to do so.
More than 40 websites, including Fandango.com, Overstock.com and Blockbuster, signed up to use Beacon software on their webpages and report what Facebook users did when they visited.
Activist site MoveOn was at the forefront of protests against Beacon and set up the petition to gather signatures on 20 November.
"It also says a lot about the ability of internet users to band together to make a difference," said Adam Green, a spokesman for MoveOn.
Facebook apologised for its actions via a letter on its website.
"We're sorry if we spoiled some of your holiday gift-giving plans," read the letter. "We are really trying to provide you with new meaningful ways, like Beacon, to help you connect and share information with your friends."
Industry commentator Om Malik said Facebook users had to be certain to opt out completely from Beacon otherwise Facebook would still collect data from partner sites - even if that data was not shared more widely.
The changes to Beacon may not be the last that Facebook has to make to the technology.Two rights groups, the Electronic Privacy Information Center and the Center for Digital Democracy, are believed to be compiling a complaint to the US Federal Trade Commission about it.
Now playing: Iron Maiden - Back In The Village
Thankfully I have lovely comrades at workrk who have covered so of my duties. Thanks!
Now playing: Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Ain't Gonna Rain Anymore
maanantai 26. marraskuuta 2007
First 2 days to change the windows, then 2 days to paint the window sills. After that window washers (1 day) and today the back door changers came and are drilling the walls right now. All have happened in the 2 days notice beforehand. And some worker-guy was on a sick leave for 2 weeks and nothing happened during that period. I think he was the Finnish boss of this operation. The Polish workers were very effective and said hello to us all every morning and did their job very well. Luckily I have had a possibility to work from home and be able to take care of the stressful cats during these operations.
And I don´t really care that much, because we are moving hopefully before Christmas. There has been a delay in that, but I hope that won´t be long. I´m missing our new home, we all are.
Well, the next tenants here will have a nice new windows and back door...
Now playing: Hammerfall - Let the Hammer Fall
lauantai 24. marraskuuta 2007
And here´s the result:
I had to say, that I´m quite satisfied, although some problems occurred which I haven´t thought beforehand. The yellow is in front, painted by me, the basic sheet was black. That black was so powerful that I used all my yellow colour and some more would be nice.
"Show your colours!" is the main theme in Finnish Football Association. So I decided to follow their instructions :-)
You´ll meet this banner at the first FC Honka home game next season.
Now playing: Within Temptation - Never-Ending Story
keskiviikko 21. marraskuuta 2007
Today evening, in Porto Portugal, takes place the most crucial battle: Portugal - Finland. Portugal need only a draw, Finland needs a win. And after that win, Finns still need help form Serbia`s opponents, Kazakhstan and Poland (who have already qualified). Serbia must not win both games.
Then our dream can come true.
There´s no room for typical Finnish negativity, and no stupid "we´ll do our best and hope that`s enough". Now is the time to support our team until the last minutes.
And regardless of the result, you are invited to join the loud supporters of Finland in Olympiastadion! Football (the number ONE sport of the world) is finally taking it`s place in our country too.
Nyt soi: Saviour Machine - A Prophecy
maanantai 19. marraskuuta 2007
I´ve added a new video for you to feel, as always on the left hand side. Someone recorded Stryper live in Turku last Saturday. You get the feeling from the first row. Here´s their biggest hit:
TO HELL WITH THE DEVIL
Speak of the devil
He's no friend of mine
To turn from him is what we have in mind
Just a liar and a thief
The word tells us so
We like to let him know
Where he can go
To hell with the devil
To hell with the devil
When things are going wrong
You know who to blame
He will always live
Up to his name
He's never been the answer
There's a better way
We are here to rock you
And to say...
Now playing: Stryper - Soldiers Under Command
sunnuntai 18. marraskuuta 2007
Tired but happy is a known Finnish saying (or phrase) after something that was very good, but still you're tired after it. That is my fiiling now. This weekend was a very enjoyable, there youths are so great!
The last day started with a morning prayer in the Turku Ice Hall. After the food-break, 2 last bands performed to us. Estonian Crux was good, I liked one song especially. The last act was Finnish HB, which was their drummers last gig. So he set his drum kit on fire!!
Now the trip comes towards its end. Thi will be remembered. I filmed more than 3 hours of raw footage and I'll try to make a movie out of them.
Now home and sleeping....
I'll start with the best thing today: Stryper was awesome!! The yellow and black attack truly rocked the house. Amazing show!! Autograph lines were too long, so I didn't get any memorabilia.
I slept mediocre sleep, about 5 hours. The our group traveled from Steiner school to Exhibition Hall to eat breakfast. There already were couple of thousand kids waiting in line. Porridge, bread, cheese, sausage, orange and mild instant coffee was on the menu.
We attended many concerts today. Fine Christian music from various artists and bands. I went to the workshop titled Movies and DVD's, Christian faith and movies. Sad to say, it was disappointment, few movieclips were wisely chosen but the pastor who lectured was quite boring in his performance. And there were not really any new thoughts for me.
The youth workers meeting was fully packed. The business lounge of Turku Ice Hall was so full, me and my colleague had to sit on the floor. There were more than 300 youth workers there, so this really is the main event in the Finnish parishes all over the country. The stand up comedians were hilarious in their show about youth workers daily lives.
Now I'm so tired I could sleep more than 12 hours. But another 5-6 hours ahead... Good night! God bless!
lauantai 17. marraskuuta 2007
The Festival has started very well. The Christian heavy metal concert "Alternative Bomb Shelter" was clearing my ears with superb music. There was a reunion band called Deuteronomium, which was one of my favourites in the middle of '90's. They still sounded great!
The final event of Friday was a worship service in Turkuhalli. Thousands of youths attended and we sang together known songs.
Then the bus brought us to this Steiner School and the night adventure begins...
torstai 15. marraskuuta 2007
The most famous performing band in the Maata Näkyvissä -Festival is STRYPER (www.stryper.com) , the long-haired Christian hardrock act from USA.
Yesterday I received tickets to Nightwish' Helsinki Ice Hall concert!! Great great news and looking very much forward that New Years Day. I'm walking in the air ...
Stryper: To hell with the devil
keskiviikko 14. marraskuuta 2007
Study for all Finnish municipal youth work: Only 5% on Finnish municipalities have a strategy for multicultural youth work. And in 10 largest cities only three has a strategy for multicultural youth work. That doesn't mean that no actual work haven't been done, a lot surely is, but there's no strategy how to do it and what are the goals of this work. It is based on individual youth worker's best knowledge which differs of course. That's not bad (they know better than higher officials), but surely this kind of work needs a better long-term planning. The study shows too that the work is unsystematic, reactions to problems more than preventive. And problem-centered.
Helsinki's leader in municipal youth work in central area, said wise words: Immigrant's equality principal must be measured from the end, not from the beginning or in the middle of the integration process. Finnish system must "give" more time, help, counseling etc. to an immigrant families than native Finns so that end result is equality between Finland-born and foreign-born citizen. That is called positive discrimination. That's the only way equality can be achieved in general.
The same study revealed that almost no work has been done with the children that have right-wing attitudes, nazist, racist and antisemitic ideas. Only if there' some kind of trouble.
Who has a right to define what is racism/discrimination and what is not?
Multicultural work has to target the main population, there are the racist attitudes. Where children learn these attitudes? The answer is: From parents and other adults. Their attitudes are crucially important. Every adult is an example how to live with other people regardless of race etc.
When organizing a meeting between Finland-born and foreign-born youth workers too often try to "soften" youth's real-world and concrete questions to each other. So the real questions are left unanswered.
The last session was about internet and youth work against racism in the web. There are many organisations and individuals who are working this subject. And that work can be easily done by everyone of us.
Very good seminar! Activated many thoughts in my head...
tiistai 13. marraskuuta 2007
Nokia 9100 doesn't make miracles, I can't edit my last blog entry with this piece of machinery. My future future work mobile phone will be N61, hopefully N61i.edit: 14.1. Removed duplicates
The 2-day seminar theme was: The gathering of the workers and organisations in multicultural youth work in Finland.What is youth work against racism? Here are some of my thoughts and learnings after the first day:
Many people and organisations are working in the multicultural youth work, but they are not given enough resources (finances and human resources)
Many Finnish immigrants or asylum seekers are people who have been living in Finland more than 15 years. Many are still calling them immigrants, why? They are Finnish. That's how deep the attitudes are here in Finland. And what's the definition or Finnish, what is the basis of that?
Many immigrants youth can't make it through vocational school, because in many cases it takes them more than six years, when Finland-based young makes it in three. That's because all the things in society and in school are not familiar to them.
The main difficulty is language. Finland demands language skills from the immigrants that even native speakers can't pass. And many work can be done easily without perfect language skills. We native speakers cannot understand this and this is breaking the country's equality laws. And I heard that in many cases when a person with different background graduates from totally Finnish high school and has a Finnish diploma it is still mandatory to take a language test (which are organised rwice a year or so).That's Finnish racism in the government and municipal system.
There's a great project in Espoo Omnia school (http://www.omnia.fi) who try to take a immigrant young as a whole and help the person in ordinary life's questions.
Finnish society is waking up to realise that Finland has changed that multicultural work is slowly expanding and reaching to almost every way of life. Many people in youth work and in workplaces in general are wondering that ordinary skills in work are not accurate and effective anymore and we need to change our way of thinking. Multicultural work is affecting in many areas of life. And this cannot be avoided, so we must adapt our work with this.
The Finnish Minority Office' official told us about the legal issues concerning racism and how to act when that happens nearby you.
Very interesting seminar! Hopefully tomorrow will be as good as today.
Some interesting links:
Visit and surf around clicking the left hand side button.
Now playing: Manowar - An American Trilogy
sunnuntai 11. marraskuuta 2007
FC Honka went to lead in the second half, but in the last few minutes TamU equalised. And off to the extra time! United made two goals and was leading 3-1. Everyone in the yellow and black group in the stands thought that the game was over. BUT like the wise footballmen say: The game is not over until the referee whistles. FC Honka made two goals and clawed the game to the penalty shootout. The Honka supporters went crazy!! Sadly Honka lost penalties and Tampere United are the champions in the league and Finnish Cup.
But what a game!!!!! I love this game! It has all thinkable emotions inside.
Now playing: Muse - Take a Bow
http://www.iltalehti.fi/nettitv/?26987566 GOAL OF THE SEASON FROM JOHN
Finnish Cup Final is today! In the evening of the Finnish Father´s Day the game will take place in Finnair Stadion
The clash between Tampere United (current champions) and mighty FC Honka from Espoo. The evening will hopefully be black and yellow!
Now playing: Running Wild - Raise Your Fist
keskiviikko 7. marraskuuta 2007
The turning point of Finland.
Is this Wednesday the day that we will remember in future as a day that changed our wiews? That in this day we finally heard those calls about our youths despair, depression and agony? The day that we finally turned our adult heads towards our children and really looked inside their eyes? The day the politics in the government and city councils finally spend money in the right way to prevent these things. The day that hard capitalistic values were swept aside and we really cared about each other? The day that we started to spend more time with our families and really talked together?
Many experts in psychiatry and psychology said today that this tragedy was waiting to happen. The signs were in the air many years ago. Why we need a tragedy before we can take these warnings seriously? Why young lives are lost before we can have much better and expanding mental care for youngs? Why are so many adults afraid of youths? Why are they respested enough? Why society is forcing them to grow up too fast?
This country has forgotten it's children, it's youths and it's elders. We are a cold country where the only thing that matters is your age, your work, your positions and your results. We close profitable factories leaving hundreds of families broken and jobless. Lower the price of hard liquor knowing that this will kill the alcoholics. Spend too much time in work neglecting our children and leave them alone in our decorated homes for hours. We, the famous Nokia country, push our elders into nursing homes that experts can take care of them and we can go back to work. In Finland every day one lonely retired old man or woman commits suicide. Every fucking day!! And we are so hypocrite and politically correct to all this. We want to think that we are not racists, but just underneath the skin, the ugly monster awakes.
I hate this country.
The sadness is overwhelming.
Please take care of you loved ones and please connect with those who walk by. Give a little smile to a stranger and be glad if you can make him smile back to you. Try to make a little good deed every day, a small one is enough. And talk to someone.
Let this tragedy move YOUR heart and let it grow into something good.
NO MUSIC. BE SILENT FOR ONE MINUTE.
Armed Finnish police rushed to the scene of the shooting, reports say
Police gave no details of the victims' injuries in the incident in the town of Tuusula, some 50km (30 miles) north of the capital Helsinki.
Finnish media reported that the shots had been fired by an 18-year-old man who is thought to be inside the school.
The building has now been surrounded by police and ambulances are on standby.
A Tuusula municipality spokesman said the gunman opened fire during a lesson, Finland's STT news agency said.
Students and staff fled in panic, and a number of heavily armed police were later seen rushing to the scene, STT said.
Some media reports suggested a message on the You Tube website was linked to the shooting.The school reportedly has several hundred students.
maanantai 5. marraskuuta 2007
I just watched the movie Hotel Rwanda. An African Schindler´s List. It´s the story of Paul Rusesabagina.
The movie was based on a true story about a hotel manager in Kigali, Rwandan capital. He helps hundreds of people´s in the middle on Rwandan genocide. The war crimes and civil war there took more than ONE MILLION LIVES. That number is so large that it can´t be comprehended. Each and every one was a single living human being, killed in war or in the war crimes. Hutu or Tutsi. And it is not an accurate number, because many victims were never found.
And after a touching movie, I jumped to the wikipedia to gather more knowledge about the issue. This is truly based on real events in 1994. I wrote in the title line of this blog entry, that the burden of this genocide is laying on our consciences, because in those days, the Western World tried so little to prevent these inhuman killings that went throughout the country. And it was in the air a long time before anything happened, so that a clear prevention was really a possibility and many lives could have been saved.
There are few lines in the movie that reflects this guilt and should touch us still after 13 years: The UN evacuated all the non-Rwandans in the middle of the genocide. No Rwandan citizen was permitted to flee and the buses left just when one Catholic School entered the hotel leaving the children and forcing all the western priests and nuns to leave too. One photographer Jack (played by Joaquin Phoenix) says: “I´m so ashamed” when he had to walk through tens of people leaving them without any hope. So few words but they cut right through you. Before that Jack discusses with Paul after editing news material to the international press:
Paul Rusesabagina: I am glad that you have shot this footage and that the world will see it. It is the only way we have a chance that people might intervene.
Jack: Yeah and if no one intervenes, is it still a good thing to show?
Paul Rusesabagina: How can they not intervene when they witness such atrocities?
Jack: I think if people see this footage they'll say, "oh my God that's horrible," and then go on eating their dinners. [pause] What the Hell do I know?
Later we can ask, what could we have done. Could I have done something? I´m ashamed that I didn´t do about anything in those days. Perhaps just like Jack said. I´m ashamed that I don´t remember giving money then, maybe something, but surely not enough. And now after watching this, I know that there are many conflict areas in the world right now. And famine too. How could we know that maybe something like that is growing somewhere? Waiting to explode. In your neighbourhood?
Where is the mankind going? Straight towards doom, perhaps?
I strongly say to you, please read these links about the Rwandan genocide. They are horrible, but I think that´s the only way for us to wash a little bit of that shame off our shoulders. And let it touch you.
And search yourself. And act when it´s time to act.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rwandan_Genocide About Rwandan Genocide
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zj47ap8mI54 A tribute to Paul Rusesabagina
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hotel_Rwanda About the movie
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paul_Rusesabagina About Paul Rusesabagina
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Georges_Ruggiu About the man who spread the hate through the infamous Hutu Radio Station urging to “kill all the cockroaches Tutsis”.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Rutaganda About the man, who was one of the leaders of Hutu Militia Interahamwe, movement to wipe out all the Tutsis.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Interahamwe About Interahamwe
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Augustin_Bizimungu About the general in Rwandan Army.
Follow the links within the webpages and find more.
Eric Clapton: River of tears
torstai 1. marraskuuta 2007
In northern Tapiola there´s an apartmentthat we really like. It is very very nice. Light all over and large windows. Instantly I had a though when we entered that this will be our new home. There are 4 rooms and a kitchen corridor. Square meters 87 which is enough for us. The living-room was quite large in the middle of the apartment and in the other end they had a kitchen table, in the corner was a small entrance to the kitchen. In there all the cupboards were new and it looked very clean and modern. There were 2 smaller bedrooms and one larger. And lots of closets for all the "stuff", clothes etc. One smaller WC and one larger. Windows were replaced 2 years ago, so they are practicly new.
There´s no elevator in the house and this apartment is in the 3rd floor. So that means a lot of carrying, but I won´t mind. The moving will happen maybe in the first days of December, and tomorrow we start collecting old cardboard-boxes. Fortunately the place is only w few kilometres to our home now, therefore it´s easy for me to take stuff there little by little by our Fiat Stilo (Our girls call it Justus nowadays...)
I´m happy !!
Die Toten Hosen: Nichts bleibt für die Ewigkeit
Now playing: David Coverdale - Shake My Tree
sunnuntai 28. lokakuuta 2007
- Rest from work, rest from school
- Time to spend with your family
- Spent doing something that you have no time any other days
- Holy day, sabbath from all the actions of the week
- Time to sleep well or perhaps take a nap
- Or something else
So we decided that they have to go home, before she (I mean the dog) has a nervous breakdown. At 4 last night I drove to Helsinki and took the dogs with me. And went straight to bed at 5.
I´m spending here the whole day, because next night would be the same. So this Sunday today for me is spending time with this laptop, drinking coffee, watching tv, going out with dogs etc. So kind a lazy day, which is fine with me.
I should do many kind of things, but I doubt this´will happen today. Soon In Cologne there´s a game starting against CS Paderborn and Bundesligaradio will transmit this to me through the internet. And then maybe a little nap and some tv.
Yesterday I was with Honka Promotion Team in Tampere in the last Veikkausliiga game against Finnish Chanpions Tampere United. Honka won 0-2, I lost my voice to Honka due to shout all through the game with other supporters. Great day! So this resting day is good for me for this reason too.
So that´s my Sunday. As a Christian, I regard Sunday a holy day too. Not just resting. But I´m not very good in keeping it holy. Or it depends what people mean by the word holy. And that´s a great question!!
Iron Maiden: Infinite Dreams
torstai 25. lokakuuta 2007
SONATA ARCTICA: White Pearl, Black Oceans...
I was born and raised by the sea, Shy yet proud,
Learned to stay away from the crowd
In my home, my lighthouse...
1000 steps down, round and round
New Years Eve, one night in the town
can change one life into eternity...
All I could see, her eyes,
we got caught in the moment, all of the night
Taken beyond all lines,
in silence leaving 'em all behind
She had found the sails, for the following night
The town, for her, was getting way too small
She promised to be mine
Forever, ...for that one night...
Moments, passion, small defeats
Concealed emotions, found in me
"You gave life to a brand new me..."
Crossing the wintry fields,
the first hour of morning light
Warmed by the flame inside,
the lasting memory of the ending night
I never had a chance to stop what hit me...
What broke my bones and mauled me...
After hours of deep, unwilling sleep... in a cold shelter
Fell back in the dark, and the hours of the day passed...
A Nightmare awakes me, blinking light!
There's no guide, blind ships in the night
Oh blood red moon, eat away the night
Darkness covers my lonely soul,
No one to feed the dying light...
Good morn', oh dreadful day,
I prayed the moon had lit the sea instead of me...
For the sails of night,
"please tell me everything's alright..."
My voice in the room broke the silence,
everybody killed me with their eyes...
What I was to hear made the people cry,
impossible for me to keep the tears inside
"All on the board White Pearl have died,
Coastal reef have tolled their lives
And you are the light of the night..."
One thing, I remember, before I fell on the ground...
Although I never saw the face,
A name was inked in his arm...
Love can be like poetry of demons, or maybe
God loves complex irony?
The family name stated I had seen before...
Written on her front door...
"Silence in the courthouse!"
A presence in the room, we both could feel
The father of her unborn child and me
All on the board White Pearl I have died,
Coastal reef have tolled their lives
While I was the guide light...
Back in my tower, run, run, run
Light is out, I hope to see
Black oceans beneath rise and swallow me
One step will take me back inside, another sees my end
No one can love a man who guarded the light
that died one faithful night, so many lives...
Flaming eyes I must confront before I'm truly stated free
Defining innocence is hell, after all that has past...
Building new walls inside my eternal night...
although they took my heart and dried me up
Sometimes I still bleed...
Show me the way
The light will show me a way on the grisly reefs
Too many dead ends I see
No soul can save me
The respect I lost, the measure of a man...
10.000 steps down, round and round
One night at the town and I'm hell bound
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me
All on the board White Pearl had died,
Coastal reef come toll my life
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me
My little tower, seal my fate
Help me pay back, end their hate
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me
One direction, down, down, down
Pitch black night for my old town
Black oceans beneath shall now swallow me
Viivi and Pepe spent two days with my wife´s sister, because we had a window installation in our home. Now we have a modern new windows and the mess for moving furniture is gone too.
Some worries still exist in my mental neighbourhood, but hopefully things will settle down in time. Why do some people have so hard time in life. It´s sad.
Here´s Viivi when she was very young baby kitten!
Now playing: U2 - The Hands That Built America
tiistai 23. lokakuuta 2007
This is a routine operation and it´s done in a very respectable (if not best) animal clinic in this country. And I truly believe all will be fine. But there´s a little worry inside me still. Viivi must wear some kind of tube (or something) around her neck for a week. I wonder how she´ll react to that.
Last days and some time longer, life has shown me its both sides. There has been worrying things in work and with my relatives, but also great things to look forward. My life has really been a rollercoaster-ride for and emotions are running high on both ways. I´m sorry I can´t tell you more, but them who know me, perhaps know what I´m talking about. Thank you friends! Maybe this is ther life of it´s fullest...
Some days I feel like listening to hardest metal I like (Megadeth for example) and some days are the days when some sounds of a Jean-Michel Jarre instrumentals make me cry. Some days are hard to go through and some goes flying by.
And some people say, life is not interesting and miss the action in the normal days. Normal days are just great, enjoy them all in the simpleness of life.
Yesterday I watched the movie Road to Perdition. It was quite emotional and yes I shed a few tears . I was about losing the innocence of an 12 year old boy. Jude Law was the greatest character in this movie, although the old stars and one very young star were good too. And no happy ending (maybe someone can think otherwise). That fitted perfectly in this movie, but I guessed the ending. So why this writing here at the end of very different texts? I really don´t know, just thought that you would like to know :-) A mediocre movie with some great acts.
Now playing: The Offspring - All I Want
lauantai 20. lokakuuta 2007
But there´s one big doubt: we haven´t seen in inside yet. Maybe it´s full of rats, maybe it´s in very bad condition. I doubt it, but you´ll never know...
Let´s see what future holds fo us...
---------------- Now playing: KENT - Önskar Att Någon... FoxyTunes:n kautta
tiistai 16. lokakuuta 2007
Virus that spreads
Suicide it brings
Dreams it smashes
Drains all hopes
Blur your mind
Eats your will
Leaves you powerless, blackens your eyes.
God, have mercy!
---------------- Now playing: Saviour Machine - Ludicrous Smiles FoxyTunes:n kautta
sunnuntai 14. lokakuuta 2007
perjantai 12. lokakuuta 2007
Today the rain was pouring down really hard in Espoo. Like the rage of heavens. With the addition of howling strong wind from the depths of purgatory. I had to walk twice outside and my mind wandered to dark thoughts in days like these. The temperature is currently about 2-4 degrees on the positive side. And we should be having a camp from this evening to Sunday afternoon. Nice, everyone´s inside all the time...
No wonder people are having depressions in Finland during the fall...
Edit at 11:26. The first snow has fallen! Although it will melt almost instantly when touching the ground.
Now playing: Moonspell - From Lowering Skies
keskiviikko 10. lokakuuta 2007
It has a basic meaning: Everything is going wrong in Germany, but all will be fine when Germany wins the World Cup in football. Here´s the lyrics:
Man müsste eigentlich jetzt dauernd lustig sein
wo doch immer so viele stöhnen
Allein schon um zu zeigen - ich bin auf keinen Fall einer von denen
Die Deutschen sind depressiv - was ist bloss schiefgelaufen
Das soviele Menschen hier die Musik von Grönemeyer kaufen.
Die Jugend ist scheinbar verblödet - die Lehrer sind ausgebrannt
Wie konnte das nur geschehen im Dichter- und Denkerland
Und wir fragen uns, was die Zukunft bringt
Und die Antwort kennt nur der Wind
Doch wir sind sicher - es wird aufwärts gehen
Wenn wir erst wieder Weltmeister sind
Wir werden Weltmeister sein ...
Und die geistig-moralische Wende - die wir damals herbeiriefen
Der Geist und die Moral sind weg, nur die Schulden sind geblieben
Und alle stehen da und fragen sich wo die fetten Jahre geblieben sind
Doch wir sind sicher es wird aufwärts gehen wenn wir erst wieder Weltmeister sind.
Wir werden Weltmeister sein...
Jetzt kommt's auf jeden einzelnen von uns an
Damit die Mannschaft wieder funktioniert
Wir dürfen beim Elfmeterschießen
Jetzt nicht die Nerven verlieren
Und wir fragen uns wie das Spiel ausgeht
(und) die Antwort kennt nur der Wind
Wir werden fair zu den Verlierern sein
Hauptsache - wir gewinnen
Wir werden Weltmeister sein
I´ll try to find the translation!
EDIT. That was harder than I thought! If you one a website where I can find the sensible translation of this song, please let me know.
keskiviikko 3. lokakuuta 2007
As the rappers say: "Don´t believe the hype!"
When I have more time, I´ll write something mindblowing about his activities...
(When in work, this cute new Foxytunes feature don´t work...)
Katselin dokumenttia Michael Mooresta ja se kyllä varmisti aika monet epäluuloni tästä kaverista. Kirjoitan muutamia juttuja siitä, kunhan on enemmän aikaa, mutta voin sanoa, että hänen "dokumenttinsa" ovat hyvin kaukana dokumenteista. Älkää uskoko populistista "totuutta" ja asioita, joita hän esittää totuuksina! Tässä linkki ohjelman infoon: http://www.yle.fi/ykkosdokumentti/
tiistai 2. lokakuuta 2007
1. Counter, so that everyone visiting The Lighthouse is connected for and important. Thank you for visiting!
2. Below you can see the song I´m currently listening while writing this. FoxyTunes made this possible.
Now playing: Alice Cooper - Department of youth
sunnuntai 30. syyskuuta 2007
- The days are getting colder, but there´s enough light in the daytime. Weekends and day-offs are great then. I´ve never had any extended depsressing thoughts in these months. Hopefully we´ll avoid excessive rains.
- FC Honka have started to play well again, good news indeed!
- I´ll meet my brother, sisters and mother next weekend. We´ll be attending my cousin´s wedding. And my mother is having a birthday party too, we´ll eat out together.
- My father went to Israel for the I-don´t-know-how-many-times. I met him at the airport. He says that people think it´s dangerous there, but in his 20th and more trips, he has never been anywhere with danger involved. I´ve visited Israel twice, it´s a great country!
- In wednesday I bought The New Nightwish Album, and it´s surely their best! AND I have tickets to their show in the beginning of January. I´m waiting for the new KENT album too...
- There´ll be a window-work in our house next weeks, and it seems they won´t give any exact time when the workers come to our home. They promised to let us know two days prior, to give us time to organize our window sills and so on. And our cats must be away then. This is worrying me.
- Our youth team is having a major planning day tomorrow, hopefully we´ll progress much further in our plans for next year.
Added some nice melodic hardrock/heavymetal for you! Enjoy Edguy!
maanantai 24. syyskuuta 2007
keskiviikko 19. syyskuuta 2007
Background have to be explained before you can understand my frustration. Espoo is the neighbouring city to our capital Helsinki. And the second largest city of Finland with about 200 000 inhabitants and more are comig every year. The metro has been in the talks for more than 20 years. Espoo city council made the decision to build this West Metro finally in 2007. Before that metro has raised its head in meetings and gatherings all the time. There has been many pros and cons in this. People in Espoo are often described as a very rich and car-driving people, mainly because of Nokia and other big firms. But Espoo has another side too, we have many others as well. But, to get to the point. The Decision to build this western Metro was made and preparations and planning started.
Espoo have arranged a couple of meetings with city officials, planners and the people of Espoo. In these discussion forums people can ask all kinds of questions about the metro. I attendend in one of these forums yesterday. There were about a hundred people present.
But the questions people asked were simply stupid. Well mainly anyway, not all. Someone asked that why the straight bus lines to Helsinki must be stopped (Hello, did you think what that would cost to us citizens to keep up the two traffic systems together!). And many simply said that this was a stupid decision, why this metro must be built? Hello again! The political decision was made, you should have acted and say you heart out long before this! And so many questions that are soooo minor in this huge operation!
Ok. I was against the metro at first too, it´s very expensive, this city has a great challenge in health care, social help and education and our current traffic system with buses is very good. But now when that decision was made, we´ll have to adjust to that and plan this thing as good as possible. Our environment will be thankful to this decision in the future, because the price of oil will most certainly rise and in the future there´ll be motorway taxes in Helsinki. My worry is that the prices of metro tickets will be so high that people cannot afford to use it.
Finnish and Swedish link: http://www.lansimetro.fi/
torstai 13. syyskuuta 2007
Look at my photos in Flickr
Here´s a teaser:
Queen: Princes of the universe
tiistai 11. syyskuuta 2007
Van Diemen's Land
Hold me now, hold me now
Till this hour has gone around
And I'm gone on the rising tide
For to face Van Diemen's Land
It's a bitter pill I swallow here
To be rent from one so dear
We fought for justice and not for gain
But the magistrate sent me away
Now kings will rule and the poor will toil
And tear their hands as the tear the soil
But a day will come in the dawning age
When an honest man sees an honest wage
Hold me now, hold me now
Till this hour has gone around
And I'm gone on the rising tide
For to face Van Diemen's Land
Still the gunman rules and the widows pay
A scarlet coat now a black beret
They thought that that blood and sacrifice
Could out of death bring forth a life
I have begun to read a book about Bono Hewson, the U2 Bono. It's written by a French journalist Micha Assayas, a long time friend of Bono. His writing style is like a continous interview, the same you found in rock magazines.
Here are two Bono' interesting thoughts from the first 100 pages:
- People are weak and they all have weaknesses - that forces us to make friends. There's a blessing in this weakness. People search from friends the things that they lack.
- To grow to be a whole person, you must trust your loved ones, friends and ultimately God. But we don't like that at all. We shun our beloved, especially because our weaknesses lead us to trusting them. As to grow. Alone we are just one clapping hand, like in that stupid zen metaphor.
Do you agree? Makes you wonder, does it?
Kirjastot on hienoja paikkoja, käytä hyväksesi! Tässä pari ajatelmaa Bonon kirjasta, jota olen lukenut vasta vajaat 100 sivua.
- Ihmisen heikkous panee hänen ystävystymään ja siinä piilee sen siunauksellisuus. Ihminen etsii toisista ihmisistä niitä asioita,mitä häneltä puuttuu
- Ihmisen on luotettava rakkaaseensa,ystäviinsä ja lopulta myös Jumalaan,jos hän haluaa kasvaa kokonaiseksi ihmiseksi. Mutta me emme pidä siitä. Me vieroksumme rakkaitamme ja erityisesti sitä että meidän pitäisi luottaa ystäviimme tullaksemme kokonaisiksi. Yksin olemme kuin siinä typerässä zen-vertauksessa, yksi taputtava käsi.
U2: Sometimes you can´t make it on your own